A trek into the unknown
It's been awhile since I've posted anything, and now I feel compelled to make a post. The time is now coming...any day now I will become a mother officially. People always talk about needing licenses to drive, but there is nothing in the world that prevents you from becoming a parent. (Well, of course there are some preventative measures...) Any person is allowed to become a parent. I still can only imagine all there is to know about becoming a parent and I don't think that a parent ever stops learning, even after their children are grown.
Last night I finished watching a series of child education DVDs...teaching about newborn care and breastfeeding and labor. I was amazed at how this woman made bathing a child seem like such an easy thing and also putting on a diaper. Yet as the baby cried (a common thing) during her sponge bath, I could imagine the cries that are soon to be consuming my days and nights. I wonder if somehow my identity will be lost in this next stage of my life: motherhood. There have been countless articles, talk shows, etc. about this topic. I can only hope that the transition into motherhood is as smooth as can possibly be. I also know from my experiences with cooking shows that what appears to be easy on TV or DVD is much more difficult in real life. (Rachel Ray's 30 minute meals take me at least 60).
I have much anxiety over the labor and have written about this topic a lot and talked about this a lot with others. I understand it's a normal fear. I almost feel like I did when I was in school and had to give a speech (I hate giving speeches) and I would volunteer to go next because I wanted the anxiety to go away. I am both fearful of this next stage of life called motherhood for so many reasons, but I also can't wait to be a mother and experience the joys that come with bringing a new life into this world. It's a very strange place to be-something that you are fearful of you are also excited for.
For now, I sign off as a soon to be mother, anxiously anticipating and awaiting the next stage of my life.
Last night I finished watching a series of child education DVDs...teaching about newborn care and breastfeeding and labor. I was amazed at how this woman made bathing a child seem like such an easy thing and also putting on a diaper. Yet as the baby cried (a common thing) during her sponge bath, I could imagine the cries that are soon to be consuming my days and nights. I wonder if somehow my identity will be lost in this next stage of my life: motherhood. There have been countless articles, talk shows, etc. about this topic. I can only hope that the transition into motherhood is as smooth as can possibly be. I also know from my experiences with cooking shows that what appears to be easy on TV or DVD is much more difficult in real life. (Rachel Ray's 30 minute meals take me at least 60).
I have much anxiety over the labor and have written about this topic a lot and talked about this a lot with others. I understand it's a normal fear. I almost feel like I did when I was in school and had to give a speech (I hate giving speeches) and I would volunteer to go next because I wanted the anxiety to go away. I am both fearful of this next stage of life called motherhood for so many reasons, but I also can't wait to be a mother and experience the joys that come with bringing a new life into this world. It's a very strange place to be-something that you are fearful of you are also excited for.
For now, I sign off as a soon to be mother, anxiously anticipating and awaiting the next stage of my life.
posted by Princess at 10:29 AM
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