Thursday, December 21, 2006

Observations from a small town girl in a big city

I finally did it. It was something that I did when I lived in Delaware for a short time. I started a notebook of how to get to different places that I keep in my car. I did try to go without for a short time, but I realized that my memory is already starting to go bad. I understand that there is something that pregnant women go through where their brain just can't remember the simplest things. The other day when following a recipe, I convinced myself that 8 ounces was a pound. That' when I realized that it was necessary to start my notebook.

I've noticed that in a big city, everyone is always in a hurry to get someplace. The way that people drive in a big city just drives me crazy. I miss my little two-lane roads where you can kind of let your mind wander as you drive. And the traffic here is just immense...even in the middle of the day when you think that most people would be working.

I've also noticed a little big of an edge on some of the people here. But yet, things at my doctors office run very efficiently, hardly any time waiting in the waiting room or to see the doctor or nurse. When I filed the mortgage and homestead exemptions this week, it was pain-free. I haven't even written about our experiences at the BMV on a Saturday. We transferred car registrations and got new drivers licenses in less than 30 minutes.

Yet this city does remind me of my old town, just much bigger. The people really aren't so different, and the traffic not so horrible. When I really think about the things that made my home my home, it is my connections with my friends and family nearby that I could just see at the drop of an email or phone call to meet for lunch or go see a movie or have a game night.

Even during the short time we lived in Delaware, we had an automatic support system in Delaware with Carl's parents and also with his friends. I had a job after about a month of moving, so I had daily contact with co-workers and other people. Even though my family and friends are much closer this move, there is definitely a sense of isolation that I feel each and every day. Some days, I don't mind, but other days I long for lots of noise and to be so busy again that I need to make up lists of things to do. I know that I should really enjoy this time because in less than six months, I won't have any time for myself, not in the way that I have the past 32 years.

I know that I need to make an effort to go out and meet people here if this is something that I want. It is definitely much easier to get lost in the shuffle when you live in a big city than in a small one.

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