Reclaiming My Life (Kind of)

I feel good. I got a good night of sleep last night thanks to my mother helping watch my baby in the middle of the night. It is amazing what a good night of sleep will do for your body. The only question is what happens when the help leaves again? I have heard several recommendations to try letting our baby cry-it-out. This is something that is so difficult for a mom is to hear her baby crying at the top of his lungs. I don't know if I'm strong enough to do it.

I attended my first Zumba class this past weekend. I had adult conversations and was around adults! The class wasn't as hard as I would have liked for it to have been, but it was fun. I am used to feeling muscle soreness after a good workout, but being that I am extremely out of shape after the baby, any workout is good. Today I even walked on the treadmill for 30 minutes and logged 1.75 miles.

In the week that my parents have visited, I have gotten several good nights of sleep, been able to take naps without worrying about the baby, not had to worry about cooking, gotten my hair cut, and even gone on a date with my husband out to dinner. I feel so refreshed, although I know that this will soon end. I am on "vacation." I feel like I have kind of reclaimed my life. Yet I do feel guilty about saying these things-as if my baby has somehow taken away things from my life. He has given me so many things that I have never had before and I know as he grows older, he will continue to bless me with many gifts. The challenge that lies before me is finding a good balance of taking care of me and also taking care of him.