New Years Resolutions
This is only the second time in so many years that I have no resolutions when it comes to weight loss, as I am pregnant right now and probably the second heaviest I've ever been in my life (I am almost at the weight I was when son #1 was born and I have 14 weeks to go).
So here I am thinking and reflecting really wondering what it is that I would like to improve in my life.
It feels like most of my resolutions are usually the same. Spend less money, save more money. Exercise more, eat better, lose weight.
The other day I got kind of mad at a family member. Then I read this story about this 4 year old little boy that died suddenly in his sleep from a seizure. When I read the story about this young, young child and how he so embraced life from his pre-school friends to his elderly neighbors, I realized just how silly my anger was. And I was all ready to be confrontational and accusatory and negative to this family member...but decided that it wasn't worth it and to just let it go. So one of my resolutions-to be able to put behind and not worry about the truly small things in life. Does my 2.5 year old have grudges and feel anger about silly things? No...so in a way go back to innocence and forget that other humans can do and say things that can make you angry. And you know what? It felt good to not be angry and really just let it go.
I haven't posted about this as this has been hard for me to grasp...but an acquaintance that I knew many years ago and haven't talked to in many years passed away in August when he committed suicide. It came as a shock to me, but then the stories started to surface of how has been so depressed the past couple of years. I had lost touch with him, but I think of him almost on a daily basis now. I wonder what I could have done, what anyone could have done to prevent this loss. I know how much he was terribly loved by his family and friends, but I know that there was nothing that anyone could have done or said to help him. People tried to help him.
I am hoping to stay in touch better with friends and family than I have. It's much easier said than done with a small child and soon to be infant coming into our world, but I will try better. I want to be more aware of what is going on with family and friends.
I also hope to be a more giving person to my community...to others. I hope to seek out volunteer opportunities in the new year even if it's not something I can participate in often, I hope to be able to do that.
It has been a great decade-got married, had a baby, about to have another baby...my life is truly blessed in so many ways and I am eternally grateful for the life I've been given.
So here I am thinking and reflecting really wondering what it is that I would like to improve in my life.
It feels like most of my resolutions are usually the same. Spend less money, save more money. Exercise more, eat better, lose weight.
The other day I got kind of mad at a family member. Then I read this story about this 4 year old little boy that died suddenly in his sleep from a seizure. When I read the story about this young, young child and how he so embraced life from his pre-school friends to his elderly neighbors, I realized just how silly my anger was. And I was all ready to be confrontational and accusatory and negative to this family member...but decided that it wasn't worth it and to just let it go. So one of my resolutions-to be able to put behind and not worry about the truly small things in life. Does my 2.5 year old have grudges and feel anger about silly things? No...so in a way go back to innocence and forget that other humans can do and say things that can make you angry. And you know what? It felt good to not be angry and really just let it go.
I haven't posted about this as this has been hard for me to grasp...but an acquaintance that I knew many years ago and haven't talked to in many years passed away in August when he committed suicide. It came as a shock to me, but then the stories started to surface of how has been so depressed the past couple of years. I had lost touch with him, but I think of him almost on a daily basis now. I wonder what I could have done, what anyone could have done to prevent this loss. I know how much he was terribly loved by his family and friends, but I know that there was nothing that anyone could have done or said to help him. People tried to help him.
I am hoping to stay in touch better with friends and family than I have. It's much easier said than done with a small child and soon to be infant coming into our world, but I will try better. I want to be more aware of what is going on with family and friends.
I also hope to be a more giving person to my community...to others. I hope to seek out volunteer opportunities in the new year even if it's not something I can participate in often, I hope to be able to do that.
It has been a great decade-got married, had a baby, about to have another baby...my life is truly blessed in so many ways and I am eternally grateful for the life I've been given.
posted by Princess at 5:20 PM
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