I am me
Have you ever felt like your life is full of disappointments? Things that have never turned out the way that you expected them to. And I was one of those people that always wished I was prettier, more outgoing, smarter, had more money, had more education, a better sense of humor, etc. I always looked at the other person wanting to be more like them-for whatever reason. I really just couldn't stand who I was and wanted to be someone else. Over time, I've slowly changed. It has been a very slow and gradual change, though. I always thought that things would turn out differently if I had a different personality, smarter, funnier, etc.
And just recently-with leaving my current job, I have started to hear from employees all over. Employees thanking me for my friendly voice (some made the comment that they could hear the smile through the phone) and the courteous manner I've always helped them. Co-workers who cried over the fact that I was leaving has made me realize that I have the power to impact people positively just by being who I am. Even though I am not the prettiest, smartest, most outgoing person in the world, I am the way that I am because this is me and I'm okay with that.
And I know that my few close friends truly enjoy me for the person that I am-even if I am always running late because I've gotten lost (again), even though I can say really stupid and ditzy things, but because those things that I do are a part of who I am. Even I can't help but laugh at myself by some of the stupid things I do! The most recent event was trying to put Diesel into my non-diesel vehicle. (By the way, the diesel fuel nozzle will NOT fit into your gas tank if you are not supposed to put diesel in it!).
Recently, I had a very bad day. I couldn't help but to break down in tears. Now that I'm living with my parents again, I wasn't able to hide the fact that I was upset. My mom told me that I need to not let things get to me. My dad said that even though I'm 31 years old, I'm still a big baby. Yes, they're both probably right. I need to get more of a backbone. I don't know if you've ever tried to not cry, but all it does is make you cry harder.
This entry may seem silly, but it has taken me almost 32 years to realize that I am me. I cannot change who I am, nor do I want to.
And just recently-with leaving my current job, I have started to hear from employees all over. Employees thanking me for my friendly voice (some made the comment that they could hear the smile through the phone) and the courteous manner I've always helped them. Co-workers who cried over the fact that I was leaving has made me realize that I have the power to impact people positively just by being who I am. Even though I am not the prettiest, smartest, most outgoing person in the world, I am the way that I am because this is me and I'm okay with that.
And I know that my few close friends truly enjoy me for the person that I am-even if I am always running late because I've gotten lost (again), even though I can say really stupid and ditzy things, but because those things that I do are a part of who I am. Even I can't help but laugh at myself by some of the stupid things I do! The most recent event was trying to put Diesel into my non-diesel vehicle. (By the way, the diesel fuel nozzle will NOT fit into your gas tank if you are not supposed to put diesel in it!).
Recently, I had a very bad day. I couldn't help but to break down in tears. Now that I'm living with my parents again, I wasn't able to hide the fact that I was upset. My mom told me that I need to not let things get to me. My dad said that even though I'm 31 years old, I'm still a big baby. Yes, they're both probably right. I need to get more of a backbone. I don't know if you've ever tried to not cry, but all it does is make you cry harder.
This entry may seem silly, but it has taken me almost 32 years to realize that I am me. I cannot change who I am, nor do I want to.
posted by Princess at 5:51 PM
2 Comments:
a beautiful spirit, an open heart and wise soul - could you really expect more?
Thank you for reading my blog!
We are going to be 32 Linda! :)
And thank you Penny for your sweet kind words. I love the big on your blog about the massive furniture-very funny and just you! Keep blogging-you're very good.
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